When you graduate from high-school
and you are still counting calories,
exercising obsessively or
hugging toilet bowls
having an eating disorder is no longer a novelty.

When you hit your twenties
and your friends are busy; studying and socialzing
while you become more and more isolated,
alone with your eating disorder
suddenly being ‘unique’ is no longer desirable.

As your 30th birthday approaches
and others celebrate careers, families and travel
while you struggle
to find something to commemorate
suddenly you start to see
that having an eating disorder has become a liability.

By the time you are in your forties
you come to the painful realization
that more than half your life
has been spent
avoiding all the dreams and hopes
that you once had
for yourself.

And you finally start to see,
that all of these years that have been spent
counting calories,
exercising obsessively or
hugging toilet bowls
has meant that you really haven’t been living at all.

(via grabbing-onto-life)

(via rememberthstars)